I am a habitual self-injurer. Everytime I do it, it get’s worse and worse. I’m afraid that one day I’ll go to far. But I’m more worried about my friend.  She is way worse than I am. Her counselor doesn’t see it as a coping method. They just hospitilized her… It makes me want to S.I. more.. But I’m more worried about her. I think that hospitilization may push her over the edge.

I haven’t found anything better than self-injury and neither has she. There just isn’t any other coping methods that work. I don’t even really know the underlying reason as to why I do it… It’s scaring me. I don’t want to die.