I would like to get on here and say that I have a ton of support from all of my friends. I would love to say that when I get the urge to SI that I have someone that I trust that I can turn to. I would love to say that my mom knows and cares. As much as I would like to say these things, I can’t. I have read a couple posts on here and I see that people talk about how they have been having a bad week or month and I completely get that. I have been a slave to SI for about 4 years I would say. I started in 6th grade, though I would say the past 2 years (08 and 09) have been the worst for me. I have tried to talk to my mother about this before and she knows that I SI myself and she does not stop me and she just thinks that I do it for attention. #1 I just think that is ignorant and of course that is not the reason and #2 I find this completely garbage since she SI’d when she was a teen as well. I dont have friends that I can confide in and even when I did all I got was maybe some fake sympathy or they would completely just ignore it. No one even bothers to care or pretend to care about me and what I do which is one of my triggers among many. I dont mean to dump so much of this out but there is no way else to get it out of my system. I dont know what I can do. Sometimes I just feel so little and so helpless.
🙁 Your story is heartbreaking. The only reason I can think of that your mom isn’t doing anything is because when she did it, she just did it for attention. I don’t know her story though… it’s just a guess. There is SOMEONE who will help you. It may not be someone you expected though. And your friends… they may not show they care because they don’t know what to do. They’re intimidated so they just keep quiet. I’m guessing that’s the way most people are… we all just feel so alone. But there’s someone, somewhere. You will find that person.
-Emily