I SI’ed again because of my boyfriend or ex-boyfriend, or whatever he is. He decided we should take a break for a month and not talk during that month,because I was starting to wonder if I deserve him and he said in a month if we feel that way then its over,but if not we are not over. I agreed to it but I didn’t want to do it. I love him and i don’t want to lose him to another girl. I’m afraid he will find another girl that is better than me,and I can’t seem to get rid of the urge to SI some more. I love him so much it keeps on hurting me even when we were together it hurt me. I just love him so much. I am getting all confused and scared again. I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t do this anymore. I want him back but I promised him that I wouldn’t talk to him for a month. This is all my fault and I know it. I feel lousy because of this. Its so painful to deal with.
first off hunny none of this is your fault. it sounds to me like he just overreacted and hes just going about this all the wrong way. i know your hurting inside and i know its the worst feeling anyone can ever experience. its really hard to deal with and not a lot of people can understand that. but it seems that he might be kind of confused to maybe hes not the right guy maybe he is im not sure i dont know him but im just saying be careful because if you love him a lot if he does something negative it will pull you down and that’s never good. hang in there sweetie. stay strong. i have faith in you coming from a person who hasnt s.I.’ed in over a year