It’s just an addiction now. Yesterday I didn’t SI at all; I was so proud of myself, because it was the first day in over three weeks. But today it was twice as bad. I can’t seem to control it. I did everything my therapist told me to do, and I still can’t stop. People are asking questions at swimming. I can’t keep telling them that I fall into bushes.

I need to stop. But I just don’t know how.