last week was one of the hardest weeks in awhile. i haven’t SI in two weeks since yesterday and i honestly don’t know how i have made it this long. last week, all i could think about was the urge inside my head to hurt myself. during school, during practice, at home, nothing else was on my mind. but i have a little more hope now. i stopped myself from doing it and still haven’t done it. seeing the scars on myself make me sad and disappointed, i want to do it again even at this moment though.

i hope this gives someone else the hope that they too have the strength inside of them to stop. everyday is a struggle, but i just hope i can continue this way and be able to stop for good.

“Someday I’ll have the strength to wonder what could have been without the pain of knowing what will never be.”