I feel like running away to anywhere. Somewhere were there are no expectations and people looking down on me to be better. I want to be free from everything, I want to live.

But I don’t know how to live anymore I feel like a shadow of what I used to be. In a way I wish I had never told my parents about SIing yes it helped for a little while but they look at me different  I can feel their disapointment. It added pressure on them they didn’t need. I mean my brothers autism isn’t a problem it isn’t like its a burden but its hard for them, and then I added to all that by telling them about myself. I just want to fade away somtimes but Im scared, I am so scared.