Hi, I’m new here. I just need to beable to vent and talk to people who may understand me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so numb as if life is going by in a haze and I can’t be apart of it. By the way I’m nikki (nickname) even  though my screeny name thing is irene. i’m 16 and have been SIing for almost two years. but it has gotten to the point where it has taken over my life.

I feel like I can’t go any where in life. I just want to SI so bad. i want to stop and I have been clean off and on for the past 4 months but it always seems like somthing has to knock me down again. i feel horrible talking about myself and all my problems but I don’t know what to do anymore. But I am thankful for this site it feels safe.