Uuuggh i hate this feeling…i just feel like theres no reason to even live anymore yet i do want to stay alive. I feel like theres no one that i can really talk to about anything because they help for awhile but then they just quit on me. What bugs me the most is that i have to watch my mom suffer and get depressed and its because of me and my sister that she crys and can no longer sleep at night. She told me that the other day and that is probablly the worst thing anyone has ever said to me. My mom knew that i SI’d before but then i convinced her that i stopped. Now i found out that my sister SI’s too and it scares me. Why is my family soooo messed up?? God ive been calling on you for quite some time now but i feel that you no longer care either!!! If what everyone says about you is true then HELP ME because i honestly cannot do this anymore…