For about the last 5 years I’ve had numerous doctors tell me my body is medication and treatment resistant. This round about diagnosis has really been a bite in the butt here of late.  I’m still mad that alternative methods along with the medications and any other formal forms of therapy have all proven to be a waste of my time and money. I’ve even had more ECT treatments done than should ever be performed on 1 human being. So many that I have about 3 years of my life that I don’t even remember. Again, going along with the title of my post, I’m not 100% sure what it is I’m trying to say. I guess I’m just tired of trying and holding onto hope that things will change and then nothing ever does. I’m either treading water or sinking and getting fed up with hopes of finding my way to solid ground.