Hi again… its been a few days since I blogged because I’ve been overwhelmed. Today is just terrible, really really bad. But what day isn’t like this for me, anyways? I just hate feeling this way and being in so much overwhelming pain. My best friend who is also going through a lot has been there for me so much, when we hurt, we hurt together, except he doesn’t approve of me hurting myself because it hurts him to know that I do that. I love him, so so much and I hate hurting him because I love him, but being in his arms is the only thing that makes me feel safe, but when he tells me I need to stop doing what I’m doing, I can’t even think about it, I don’t know how to stop, I’m addicted to SIing, and its terrible. I have tried so many different things to try and get myself to stop, and nothing is working. I’m so tired of crying, especially crying with him because it hurts him to see me cry so much, but it makes me feel better to know that I have his arms to cry in, I love him. But I’m hurting so much and definitely don’t want to bring him down with me.I am going through so much right now, some of which is inappropriate to post on this site, but I just don’t know how to handle anything anymore, I’m dying inside, and can’t keep holding on. I’m afraid