i feel like i’m losing the people i trust. a lot of people know about me siing now. and after i tell each person our relationship is strained. i keep thinking that i can trust people. and then i lose their trust, and vice versa. they say they won’t tell anyone else and then they do. i hate this. and after it tell them i’ll stop for like a week. and then i’ll start again and disappoint them. and as i continue to disappoint them they talk to me less and stop encouraging me to stop. i feel like i’m losing them. and every single person i’ve felt like i can trust loses my trust. every one. i feel like i’m alone without any help. like no one cares. but i know that’s not true. i know someone cares. they just… aren’t very good at showing it i guess.