Today, tomorrow, yesterday.. whatever day it is, it doesn’t matter because its always the same miserable thing, and I absolutely hate it. I can’t stand this anymore, and I don’t know if I can actually keep holding on. I’m hanging by a thread, and its growing ridiculously thin, its about to snap. its so scary, I’m so afraid, and its miserable. Thats how bad it actually is. I just need a friend, someone to talk to that won’t judge me and understands what I’m going through. I have been SIing lately, which makes me feel better, until I have to hide from everyone. My food issues are also kind of terrifying. My friends mom found out about it last night and flipped out and lectured me out of love, but still it was annoying and scary to me. Someone else called my scholl about it again, which is going to cause my problems that I don’t need… they already want to put me in a mental hospital, but I refuse to go.. not that my opinion really matters anyways because I’m only 15, but whatever I guess. I just don’t know what to do anymore, or where to turn. I’ve been living in a closet for the last few weeks, just so I Can hide and be away from the people who are hurting me. I’m so lonely and sad, and hurting. What should I Do? I don’t know how to keep going on like this. Help…?
Dear Broken, Perhaps it’s time to come out of the closet… You have to get a handle on things, and if that means going somewhere that can help you – so be it. There are other options than going into a “mental” hospital. Psychologists are trained to help – they go to school for years to learn the best therapies for the worst problems. They want to help you and a good one is dedicated to your success. Please talk to your mom. Let her know you are eager to talk to a professional that can help you sort out whats in your head. Suggest a therapy session or two just to get the healing started. If you want her to be part of the solution, you can ask her to join you. Let the therapist help her understand, and see the severity of your SI behavior and it’s underlying issues. Bring your depression, anxiety, or what ever the cause, into the light. Find a psychologist you are both comfortable with and don’t settle for less. This is your life, your happiness, your future on the line. There IS hope, so try to hang in there. And remember, YOU are loved.
Yeah, life stinks. i know. im there too. and its too easy to just give up. im here for you. yeah, i just met you. but i dont judge and im a goood listener. fifthvenueangel713@hotmail.com what sort of food issues? as for a mental hospital, thats not whatt we (any of the people who SI) need. you could try antidepressants if you think theyre needed. hope ive sortof helped. 🙂