I’m very confused. I don’t know what to think of myself. I used to S.I. then I stopped, I stoppped, but I wasn’t ready to. I knew I had to at some piont, but I’m not ready yet, I don’t know what will come tomorrow and that scares me. I have no self awarness as to what people think of me when the see my injuries. That terrifies me. I get teased all the time and people talk about me behind my back constantly I don’t know who to trust, and I hope that in the ne year I will be able to trust myself. I hope that I will fully stop at one point, I hope that my friends will understand that I’m not crazy, that my life isn’t so great right now, that when My mom uses it hurts and terrifes me. I’ve aslo realized that my mom self injures too, by using and I feel that I need to ontrol her, but I can’t. That hurts so bad, and I don’t now how to cope with that. I feel so alone because when people found out about my self injuries People stopped talking to me, I am afraid to say these things to my parents and friends, because it sounds insane to me and I can’t lose them again. I just can’t they’re the only thing I have now. When my dad found out he was furious. It was what made me S.I. even more, and i didn’t want to. I wanted to stop, but now I miss it and I don’t know what to think of that, not a all, not even a little