today i was haing out with my boyfriend and he knows i SI. but today we were laying on my couch and he saw that i SI again and he freeked out on me and said he is starting to loose trust in me and that he couldent deal with me any more and he left after he was gone all i could was cry and it got to be too much so i SI again . i dont know what to do he is my everything i dont know what ill do if i loose him??