My digression with my SI is getting bad. My depression is causing me to sink.
I have very little will to live anymore. I’m depressed. I’m suffering from grief. I’m immersed in my bereavement. And I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I just want to know… should I check myself into a hospital? I don’t want to die, really. But I don’t want to live.
So should I check myself into a hospital for my weakened mental health?
I’m afraid of getting locked up but I want help. Therapists and dr’s havent been enough. So what should I do?
You probably have already made a decision considering it’s two days after you posted this. I would probably ask your dr or therapist what to do. If they offer no advise, I would check myself in. It may be hard, you may hate your decision, but you will come to feel at ease knowing you did the right thing for yourself.
You don’t want to die. It’s not the answer. Living is. You can’t continue to live like this though. You need to find some joy, some happiness. Coming from someone who has been admitted more than once, I know it isn’t easy at all. I didn’t even think they helped me (or didn’t at the time anyway), but at least they kept me safe and gave me ideas for when things got really bad. I know we can’t all have good days, but there are ways to cope with them.
Hopefully you have made a safe decision and will be posting on here soon, maybe after you get some help? Let me know how things go. If you need to talk to someone, my email is toorealforwords@gmail.com. Don’t hesistate to email me. There is support out there. We all just need to join together (Even if we feel like pushing the world away) and help each other through such hard times in our lives.