My best friend, the one who I’ve told everything, the girl who saved my life, resents me for putting her through so much pain. I can’t seem to hate her back though..things are so awkward, I don’t know what to do. Her anxiety has rose so high that well, she can’t really deal with it anymore. She can’t deal with me anymore. I cause her too much stress when she needs to stay stress free. It’s time for me to take care of her now.

I’m on my own..again.

I know deep down she loves me too, I mean, she did call me her sister a few weeks ago. I have to act like everything is all right all the time now.  I need to make sure she stays stress free. Maybe then the resentment will subside.

It’s really not my fault. I called out for help. I mean, would she rather have dealt with me not being here at all?

I don’t even know why I posted this. How have your friends reacted to your SIing? I haven’t SI’d in a year and ten months and it’s still lingering. Make it go away :\