im 17 n ive stopped SI for 8 months after i injured myself and my mom bought me to the hospital. i wanted to stop. today 8 months later more upset then ive been in months i see why i do it. its not that i like leaving scars but when its everyone else that controls the pain you feel you want to be the one who controls something. at the moment its taking all my control not to hurt myself. the only reason i don’t is bc it would hurt my grandmother. but living for someone else feels like the worse way to live, when there’s so much wrong. its just really hard to control myself right now