i used to self injure when i was younger, like 7th and 8th grade because i was raped by a boyfriend and i didn’t know how to deal with all the pain i was feeling. i stopped when my parents found out, and didn’t do it again until my senior year of high school when i was in a very unhealthy relationship with a boy who was very dangerous emotionally to me. we were enablers for each other, and very unstable. i am now halfway through my freshman year at a 4 year college, and i got through the first semester without self injuring. but after i got home, all the stress got to me, of being at home, and just being ALONE. the first boy i allowed myself to have feelings for for almost 3 years disappeared on me with no warning, and it just cracked me. i don’t know what to do because i’m worried if my parents find out they’ll make me withdraw from school and come home to take care of it but i just don’t know how to deal with all these feelings that i’m having because i’m used to not feeling anything.