I really don’t know whats going on right now. I haven’t SI’ed in probably a month and when I get mad I stop the urges but now for some reason I want to SI for no reason. I never really thought of this as a habit I just thought it was something to help me get through my problems. Ever since freshmen year last year I get this feeling of Im sad or mad and I don’t know why. There are so many things that are inside that I want to let out but I don’t at the same time. I just don’ feel comforable sharing how I feel. I feel that if I tell someone all my problems that I will become a burden to them and I don’t want that at all. I also have a trust problem. Things are just so confussing right now.