i will be so glad when i get insurance and can see a therapist on a regular basis. i just don’t know how I can go from okay to horrible in point zero seconds. more than anything in the world i want to be okay, but today i know i am not. just thinking about injuring i realize that it is such a fine line and i could fall over that line with any given stress. work is tough right now and i feel very alone in everything i do. i know i don’t need to be in a relationship right now but sleeping alone is so hard. spending each day knowing there is no one to come home to is sad. just needed to express myself somewhere safe tonight. hope all is well with each of you and the night finds you choosing to be SAFE.