Today i was called down to the guidance office and i had to ask someone where it is. When i got there my two friends that i had told about my si-ing were sitting there crying. My freind looked up at me and apoligized saying she loved me too much and that she would rather she lost my friendship than lose me. No i wasn’t mad at them but i definatly wasn’t jumping up and down thanking them for telling the guidance counciler. I sat down and stared straight ahead trying not to cry. the guidance counciler started talking to me and asking me questions while i nodded or shook my head. I was speechless. She told my friends that they had done the right thing and told them to leave and talked to me alone as i cryed my eyes out. she asked me tons of questions and had the nurse come to look me over. But the worst was that she called my mom to come and talk. I sat there waiting crying my eyes out for my mom to come. When she got there i had to repeat everything that i had said to my guiddance counciler to my mom. It Was Terrible.. I guess it might be better that my parents no so that maybe they can lay off me a bit but that was so hard to sit there and have my mom stare at me trying to understand how i was feeling
I totally know how you feel right now. I’ve been on and off with SIing for 5 years with in the first year I had broken down and told my youth leader from church while we were at camp about it. I had a long talk with her and probably a few days after we had gotten back she told me that she had to tell my mom bout what I was doing to myself. I so was not for that but there was nothing that I could do. When it came the time to tell my mom its was a very weird situation that I did not want to be put in. We all where crying my mom was also trying to understand my feelings and why I did it, she also wanted to see. That was one of the most uncomfortable things I’ve ever had to tell my mom. After that I stoped for a while because my mom was checking on me more often. Once the checking started to fade away, things started going bad and I went back to it my mom doesn’t know that i’ve started doing it again. I feel bad for going behind her back and doin it again I am working on stoping but its very hard. All I can say is that things will get better and you are very lucky to have friends like that. This maybe the start of your road to recovery. I wish you the best!
Peace&LOVE
TB
That’s exactly what happened to me except my dad came with my mom too.
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Bad memories..
I’m glad you didn’t deny anything. Help is on the way, you’ll do just fine 🙂
I completely understand. Earlier you had commented on one of my blogs that is so similar to this. But trust me, now that your parents know it will get better. You won’t be so tempted because somewhere you’ll want to show them that you’re strong enough to get through this. It’s really hard, I know. Something so very similar happened to me. It’s awful. But in the end it will get better, even if it seems your world is ending but it’s not. I know its not.
i guess it has already helped me because i was happy today happier than ive been in awhile. Ive had the urge to si but i was able to not. Hopefully this will last! its still weird with my parents knowing but i think things will get better
something very similar happened to me today…but i actually got out of it..for now…The whole parents knowing things didn’t work out so well with me. I mean, they found out a year ago, didn’t do anything at all, and now im pretty sure they think i’ve stopped. Hope things will get better for you!