Well, it’ll be a week tomorrow since the last time I SIed. The longest I’ve gone is a week, so I’m a bit worried I’ll relapse again. But, I want to stay strong. I want to be completely clean for Christmas. But as I begin to heal, I get even bigger urges. But I don’t want too many people to find out. I don’t want my parents to find out, or the rest of my family. So I need these marks to heal up. I should have never turned to SI in the first place. It was a stupid decision, because now, I’m addicted. Just one time, I told myself. I told my friend the same thing too, but no, it wasn’t just one time. Plus I told my friend it wasn’t going to change me. Well, I changed. I lost my old self. I’m just trying to get her back, but my worst fear is that I lost her completely. I’m worried that I won’t get her back. Life is just so confusing right now. A constant roller coaster. I’m getting by each day, I’m staying strong, but for how long will this last?
If you’re strong enough to realize you need to stop SIing then you are strong enough to stop. You can do it congrats on 1 weeks! I used to SI and now I am clean for four months! If I can do it you can do it, a hint of advice, this is a hard burden to bear alone, if there is one person in your life who will not judge and you can trust tell them and they will help guide you through this. Stay strong you can do it, it gets easier eventually. Remember that SIing doesn’t help, it makes things worse. You can get your old self back, just take it day by day.
Hi, when I read your post I saw a lot of myself in you. I have not Sied in a few months but it used to be a regular thing. Sometimes I still get the urge but as time goes by it gets easier to push away. That’s not to say its not still hard. But if you truly want to turn your life around I believe you can do it. You were brave enough to come to this site for help, I think you will also be brave enough to face the recovery process. Best of luck, love Kylar