This is just something that I wrote. It’s not really that good, it’s really dark, but it’s very symbolic…

Your Tears flow like a river and you float away… As the river whisks you away, you feel free. But when the rapids come, you begin to wish you’d never come here. But by that time it’s too late and you’re engulfed. You’re reaching out, trying to grab onto anything for help, crying and begging for help. But in the end, the tears and loneliness win. And as you lie there in the frozen river you know that no one cares. Because someone who cares would have reached out and pulled you from the threatening river, saving you from the devils grasp. Or in the least, they would have looked for your body in the raging river of lies, hate, and pain. But no one cared. So here you are, all alone again. The same way you lived you’re life for so long that the lies, pain, and hate brought you to this raging river and told you to take a sip. But with just one sip of the poison, you are addicted and jump in, for eternity in this river, unless you find someone to love you and show you the way. But you can’t. So now there is no way out. There is no hope. You are dead and gone. Killed by your own foolishness. You will spend the rest of eternity rotting in the bottom of the river.

And now all those people who treated you like dirt your whole life ask why. They pretend that they never saw you crying out and hurting. They try to tell themselves that it’s not their fault. But they will always know that it was when they pushed the crying child away, told them that they never mattered, and pretended that everything was alright when your world was falling apart; that they failed to show you that they loved you. As to whether or not they even liked you, I don’t know, but nevertheless, it was their job, as family or as a friend or as a Christian or as a decent human being; to show you that you don’t have to fallow the serpent to find yourself. They failed you. And you failed yourself. Though it’s not your fault that you can’t break free from the crashing waves, it is your fault that you ate of the forbidden. In that way, you failed yourself…

 I’m drowning…