Okay, so today I made the decision to stop SIing. And this time I mean it. So, yesterday was the last day. I am going to become completely clean. I am accepting the reality that if I don’t stop now, that the dark thoughts will become more real. So yes, I’m done and I’m moving on. I am returning to who I was just a few months ago. I’m finally allowing God to change me, to heal me. Yes, everyday is going to be hard, there will be urges, but I am going to fight them. I am going to be completely clean by the time Christmas comes, which is only a few short weeks away. And as I have come to this conclusion, as I give my all to God, I feel so amazing, so free. I am going to make a choice to stop hurting those I care about, I am going to stop hurting God, my heavenly Father. I am simply moving on to the next chapter in life. A chapter of new beginnings, a chapter filled with love so amazing that it demands my life, my soul, my all.