Okay, so today I made the decision to stop SIing. And this time I mean it. So, yesterday was the last day. I am going to become completely clean. I am accepting the reality that if I don’t stop now, that the dark thoughts will become more real. So yes, I’m done and I’m moving on. I am returning to who I was just a few months ago. I’m finally allowing God to change me, to heal me. Yes, everyday is going to be hard, there will be urges, but I am going to fight them. I am going to be completely clean by the time Christmas comes, which is only a few short weeks away. And as I have come to this conclusion, as I give my all to God, I feel so amazing, so free. I am going to make a choice to stop hurting those I care about, I am going to stop hurting God, my heavenly Father. I am simply moving on to the next chapter in life. A chapter of new beginnings, a chapter filled with love so amazing that it demands my life, my soul, my all.
I’m really glad to hear this!
…and yeah, it is hard to deal with the urges sometimes, but you can do it. Be sure & ask for help when you need it and find other ways of dealing with the feelings. I’m trying to be clean from s.i. too, so i know what a tough decision it is & i’m proud of you.
I’m so proud of you! I wish I was as strong as you are.