Everyone( Therapist, Psychiatrist) also in this case (My Medical Doctor) is always saying “This too shall pass.” Have they ever been in my shoes or shadows. I don’t know if I was trying to be a smart alec in session on Friday or what when my shrink asked “when was the last time I hurt myself.” I answered her and now comes tonight when I’m sitting here alone wondering how it would feel to just settle these urges and thoughts and SI. I wondering if I could I……… Everything that has happen over the past week, months, years is just one huge ciecle feeding into this circle making the anger go as deep as it can causing the numbness which equals to Siing and finally feeling something. Oh, What we could do? This circle, this record that keeps spinning doesn’t spin me once it’s spins forever round and round.