I went to s.a.f.e. almost a year and a half ago, and haven’t si’d at all in over six months. I would go weeks at a time without even thinking about si, and even then most of the time i didnt consider doing it, i was just thinking about all that i had been through. But lately it has been a daily struggle not to si. I try to sleep so i can stay numb. I’m happy for short periods of time still but they are getting fewer, and farther between. I’m a dancer and that is the one thing that still makes me happy, but if i SI i will have to be really carefull to hide my scars/injuries, because leotards don’t cover much. I just wish i could do away with my problems for good, but right now things are getting unbearable.