My best friend ended his life last month on September thirtieth
i tried to be strong
i hadnt injured myself in 8 months
Then i met the boy of my dreams
it got complicated
i began injuring again.
then on December first my other good friend Marissa killed herself
I havent been right since dillon died so her leaving me made it harder
I injured again.
Tonight my boyfriend told me he was going to Juvey for possibly a year for something he didnt do
Were a longdistance couple so i doubt its the truth
He says he loves me but i probably wont hear from him again
It added to the pot.
I dont know what to do anymore
I cant stop crying
i feel like dying
i hate hurting myself
but it helps
i dont know what to do
awww girl… i no how u feeel! i feel the same way 2 sometimes but everything will be okay!all i can say is u gotta act happy to be happy. hope 4 the best!
I had a friend that I talked to about my self harm and she told me if I ever felt like doing it to keep my hands busy. I know your going through a lot because this year we lost a student from my school. We weren’t close but I had talked to her multiple times and she was kind of a role model to many people. This brought me down and that’s when I talked to my friend. Every time I feel like self harming myself I draw a picture or go play basketball. Little things that can keep your hands busy helps a lot. Everything will be okay and I wish you the best!
Hun, my heart goes out to you. All of those terrible things that have happened must be so overwhelming. One thing that I learned was that everytime something bad happens, don’t see it as “adding to the pot”. Things are much easier to deal/come to terms with when they aren’t all clumped together. When everything builds up, it sometimes seems as though they will never be overcome. I think one of the best things that you said is that you hate hurting yourself, that is the first step to learning how to find different ways of doing things. After all you’ve been through, you seem like a strong person and I think you deserve to have a happy, healthy future. I wish you the best and remember to just keep breathing 🙂
They told you to keep breathing, right? Well here try this..If you’re struggling with thoughts of worthlessness and hopelessness and even suicidal thoughts grab a pen and paper and write down things to live for. It can be anything from a puppy to one day getting married and starting a family. Try to fill up one page. You can do it.