My best friend ended his life last month on September thirtieth

i tried to be strong

i hadnt injured myself in 8 months

Then i met the boy of my dreams

it got complicated

i began injuring again. 

then on December first my other good friend Marissa killed herself

I havent been right since dillon died so her leaving me made it harder

I injured again.

Tonight my boyfriend told me he was going to Juvey for possibly a year for something he didnt do

Were a longdistance couple so i doubt its the truth

He says he loves me but i probably wont hear from him again

It added to the pot.

I dont know what to do anymore

I cant stop crying

i feel like dying

i hate hurting myself

but it helps

i dont know what to do