love your self?!?! Idon’t get that, I never have. How are you supposed to love yourself? People tell me I’m smart and beautiful, and have so much going for me. but all I see at the and of the road is a dark abyss. 

And it hurts knowing that these people see a lie, a mask painted on permanently but its slowly cracking. I’m falling apart, losingwhat i have left of myself. I’m tired of being used as a pawn in life.  It’s so easy to fall in love, but how can you love someone else when you don’t love yourself?