Sometimes I ask myself: ”Why do I do this? ‘ And I’m actually not too sure. Maybe its just a way to get rid of my self-hate. The only reason I’m sticking in here is because of my friends….

On another note, I am really frightened about college. The truth is, I can’t see myself living to see college. I don’t think I could do anything with my life without completely failing.

This is my fourht day of not SIing, but I’m afraid that might not last too long.