So. I had a relapse yesterday. In the bathroom of my counsellor’s office. How ironic. And when I got into the room, my counsellor had to go do something and she asked if I was okay.  I said no and burst out in tears. I cried hysterically, sobbing for a couple minutes. I always have to put up this front, this mask, and I can’t cry or look sad because people will wonder why and ask questions. So I just let it all out. I just don’t know how I can be there for my pregnant best friend and deal with my own problems and stresses at the same time. It’s just all too much, and it’s building up inside of me. I told my mom ab0ut my relapse.