I have gotten to the point that I’m not so sure I can resist the temptations to SI anymore. I realized that I was never really done with it… I avoided situations that would normally cause me to do it… but thats it. Now I miss it, need it again. Even though theres nothing really wrong. Ill pick up a tool and just stare at it. I know I want to do it. Bad. But I dont want to. I want to resist but Im not so sure I can anymore… idk…