It’s been 20 days since the last time I self-injured. My fiancé found out and almost ended our relationship because I did it again when I promised him I wouldn’t. Promise or no promise the urge was there & I couldn’t bring myself to talk to him or anyone before I acted. The past 6 months have been very difficult for our relationship. Right now I feel that there’s no way out but at the same time I don’t know that I want out. I’m afraid of being without this relationship. I’m very confused & I feel stuck. I’ve had the urges lately because I feel so helpless in our situation (which has only been generalized here, there’s a lot more to it). My urges are getting more intense as time goes by. If I did it, my fiancé would end our relationship but our relationship is so close to being over anyway that I feel like I might as well stop fighting it. I’m scared, sad, lonely and feeling stuck. It’s aweful.