i guess i’m just disappointed in myself. its been almost 6 months since i last SI’d and lately its just getting harder to fight this off. I cant stop thinkin about the one thing thats my biggest trigger. And now i feel like at this point no one would care if i SI’d again. And its like everyone expects me to again. I just wish i could honestly have one day with out battling this thought. :/
I understand, as I went almost two years Safe, then about six months after my mother passed away, I felt I had no real support and once the pain became too intense I couldnt see around at times, but I always looked back at my logs and papers, and tried everything to keep fighting. Fight for yourself, because you are worth it. Even tho it may not feel this way, it is very true. One day is better than none at all. Day one is a tremendous accomplishment.
i care.. And you have someone who wants you to continue on with trying to stop you are doing really good and dont give in to the things that tell you that you need this.. you can stop all by yourself.. Please just think before you act because if you do you will see that you dant need SI to help you with your problems.. that is what i am trying to do now make myself just look at my life and see that there are other ways to deal with things.. I have gone two months with out it and before that little incident i went two and almost a half years with out it.. you can do this.. if you want to talk email me at jjmsgirl@gmail.com