2 days ago was my 5 month anniversary of not SI’ing. A few weeks ago it started getting alot harder for me to not do it. I had some rough times this summer that really tested me, but i never did it. Now, im getting really tempted again. Even though nothing really bad is going on in my life. I have alot of stresses but… Im no where near as upset as i used to get. My boyfriend and best friend are there for me and I know they are. They are telling me to just talk to them, to let everything out by talking. But it’s hard. I SI’ed for about 3 years. And now I really dont know how to cope with being upset normally. Injuring became the only thing that made me feel better. Now, without the instant gratification, its really really hard. I dont want to do it, but I’m beginning to… miss?… it. It was such a big part of me for so long. And now i just dont know how to cope normally. I feel like I need to SI even though i know i really dont. I dont know what to do.
You can continue with resisting it to fight the urge to injure.. it will be really hard but at least you have people that want to help you that will talk with you and you know what i am here and i want to talk with you and there are so many people on this site that are going throught the same thing you are and they want your help and want to help you are the smae time because really we are one big family that all wants to help eachother and think that everyone else is special for sharing and for holding out as long as they can and i for one am proud of you for going so long.. if you want you can email me at jjmsgirl@gmail.com and i want to talk with you whenever you want to talk with me.