I am slipping. I am slipping and I feel it, I see it, and part of me does not care. It feels like some sort of weird comfort to revert back to old habits. It is easy.
I am struggling. I don’t know what to do. My therapist and therapy in general are not helping. She (my therapist) is going on a 8 week long break anyway so that support will be gone. I might as well get used to it now, which is one of the reasons I am deciding not to go back to therapy. I know right now with the thoughts in my head is not the best time to quit, but I feel that, sometimes, therapy makes it worse. It brings up all the bad stuff I do not want to think about, all the stuff that I try desperately to ignore and push away.
I am slipping and I don’t know what to do. I have tried so hard to be better. I want to give up. I am exhausted from trying.
i’m sorry you won’t have your therapist for a while and are feeling so down and having thoughts of slipping. i know and understand that feeling.
i went to a few sessions with my own therapist and then quit because we talked about things that i don’t want to face so i quit…but that’s what therapy is about…taking all those bad thoughts, feelings, and urges to SI and learning how to express yourself in a healthier way…i’m not really one to talk, as i quit my own therapy, but i can say from experience, it would probably be better if i had stayed in therapy and tried to face what was bothering me…even tho it scared me.
try your best not to give up. you’re worth trying…and even if you do slip…you can still keep trying. it’s not the end…you just have to work through it.
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