i dont know, it hurts so bad everyday. All i think about it, “how do i get out of going out today?” i dont want to go anywhere, want to give up, i just i cant tell my mom becasue she is too worried about my aunt with cancer, i cant tell my dad cause he wouldnt understand. i dont want people looking at me, and makeing sure i dont get sharp objects near me cause they dont want me to s.i. myself. i’m so very sad.
Hey musicgirl300,
My name is Melody. I wish I knew what to say,except that I am sorry. When famil and friends seem impossible to talk to, it makes getting better harder. I know your mom may be worried about your aunt, but you are still her daughter and she still loves you and wants to help you. Talking to her will be a great option. And telling other people is hard because you don’t want them looking at you weird, or making sure sharp objects aren’t around you, but that something you can tell them. Say you don’t want them acting like you need constant watching, say, “I just need you to help me and support me so I can get better.” Your friend will do that for you. Going out is also hard because you don’t want to see the looks people will give you if htey see the injuries, but going out may be the best thing for you, right now. To go have fun and try to work on getting better. If you ever need to talk or still feel like you can’t talk to your family or friends my email is dashdollie10@yahoo.com. I would like to be a support system for you , if you can’t turn to anyone els. You can get better. Your best days are ahead of you without S.I. Trust me.
I wish you luck and hope if you need something to email me.
~Melody
I agree with the above poster, it is always best to have someone who can support you. I know it is hard to tell others (for me it is hard to admit my weakness) but it is totally worth it. All of us here feel your pain, we’re here to go through it together, right? Once SI’ing starts, it’s hard to stop. Your mom will understand, I’m sure, because she loves you. Even if you feel like SIing makes you a crazy person or whatever…it doesn’t! It just means you’re not perfect. I’ve got a deal for you – if you tell your mom about your SI I’ll tell mine. Email me at emilykrause10@gmail.com if you ever need support or advice. <3 Em