Slipped up…again.  I’ve been trying to go cold turkey for months now, but when i get really stressed s.i. seems like the only way to turn off my brain.  I’m telling myself that will be the last time i s.i., but realistically it probably won’t.  I keep asking myself why i think i’ll be better off without it, and i don’t know exactly what the answer is.  I don’t know if i really have a good reason for giving it up…why give it up without a really good reason?

I know this is all kinda self-indulgent and stuff, but i don’t talk to any real-life people about this stuff.  So it goes here instead.