K so i just got back from a retreat called Kairos and it was incredible. I have had feelings cramped up inside me for so long and finally i was able to let them all out. I SI and have thought about ending my life many times and then i heard about this retreat and how it brings you closer to God and to others so i thought maybe this is my chance to finnally get help and be able to move on with my life. At first i was really scared because i am a junior in and the rest of the girls in my gorup were seniors and i didnt really know any of them. I didn’t think i would be able to open up and tell them everything that was going on but then i heard some of their stories and saw how much they trusted me so i began to trust them. I spilled out all of my feelings and cried for about two hours straight and i am finally able to say that i took the step to getting help. I am going to see a councler and the new friends i made said that they will always be there for me and i know that they mean it. I can say that this is the first time in the past two years that i have actually been truly happy and feel like there is a chance for me to beat SI. I just wanted to post this to say that if there is hope for me there is hope for you to! Maybe the world isn’t such a bad place, we just need to open our eyes and let others in!