So, i guess the one good thing going on lately is that i’ve actually resisted the temptation consistently for a couple weeks.
I want to hurt myself though, and it’s for the silliest reasons. Like, ever since I was about 11 years old (now i’m 18) I’ve considered myself hideously ugly. I can hardly bring myself to look in a mirror, let alone go out in public where people will be disgusted by the sight of me. I know how ridiculous this is, and yet this has been the main reason why i want to hurt myself lately. There are also like ten million other things, but this silly one has been the most pressing lately. I get violently angry whenever i see what i look like. Weird? I think so.
It’s not weird at all. I get upset when I look in the mirror because I couldn’t hate my body anymore than I already do. So yeah, I understand where you’re coming from. But the other day I was talking to my friend about how bad my body is and he said “Not everyone thinks it’s that awful.” What I’m trying to say is, you may think you’re ugly, but other people may see you as beautiful. I hope that helped you^^
its not weird, you just have to get used to urself
Hey trissy, i think theyre right. Im kinda nervous cuz i know what i want to say yet cant put in the right words but i wanna help 🙂
If this helps, after being judged all my life for the way I look ive learned to see beyond exterior. Youre not weird for wrestling with this, its okay weve all been there.
I had a friend who struggled with her body because she wanted to lose weight. After talking with her, i found that she struggled with being confident and seeing herself in a positive way. When she first came up to me and my friends i looked away because i was so nervous! ( i tend to be shy around girls at first lol) When she saw me, she might have been self conscious about the “way she looked” but to me she was very pretty, and it never crossed my mind that she wasnt. I never judged her, or looked down on her, in fact i was surprised that someone like her was actually talking to me and my friends lol Sorry it was so long, but i hope that it was worth it True beauty is from the heart in the end, if you see yourself as beautiful, others will see that too 🙂