So, i guess the one good thing going on lately is that i’ve actually resisted the temptation consistently for a couple weeks.
I want to hurt myself though, and it’s for the silliest reasons. Like, ever since I was about 11 years old (now i’m 18) I’ve considered myself hideously ugly. I can hardly bring myself to look in a mirror, let alone go out in public where people will be disgusted by the sight of me. I know how ridiculous this is, and yet this has been the main reason why i want to hurt myself lately. There are also like ten million other things, but this silly one has been the most pressing lately. I get violently angry whenever i see what i look like. Weird? I think so.