So, i guess the one good thing going on lately is that i’ve actually resisted the temptation consistently for a couple weeks.

I want to hurt myself though, and it’s for the silliest reasons.  Like, ever since I was about 11 years old (now i’m 18) I’ve considered myself hideously ugly.  I can hardly bring myself to look in a mirror, let alone go out in public where people will be disgusted by the sight of me.  I know how ridiculous this is, and yet this has been the main reason why i want to hurt myself lately.  There are also like ten million other things, but this silly one has been the most pressing lately.  I get violently angry whenever i see what i look like.  Weird?  I think so.