Um, hello. I’m new to this website.
I don’t really injure or anything. I mean, I do sometimes. I’ll explain.
Somtimes, if I hurt someone else in some way, then I feel like I deserve pain for hurting them, and I hurt myself.
I know it’s bad, and I probably shouldn’t be doing this, but I can’t really help it. If I hurt someone else, I should feel pain for hurting them. I DESERVE to be hurt, you know? An eye for an eye, sort of thing.
Anyways, I guess that’s it for now. I don’t really know what to do about it.
I’m almost just like you. Except, it’s sometimes not what I do thatbrings me to a wealk point, it’s the things others do to me, that I have no control over, and that cause me to break down to nothing and feel like all that’s left is injury, all that’s left is brokenness and emptiness and wallowing. After a while I stopped allowing that, like last night. I controlled it. You gain control as you go, and all you have to do is gain the will to stop, and want it more than anything. That’s the most powerful and meaningful recovery one can have.
Peace to you, <3rescue