I can’t stop and no one seems to care it started 5 years ago and I’ve gone months without SI but my parents got divorced and my mom got cancer and it all came back. I told my mom and she didn’t even blink an eye. I hate that this has control over me and I have this fear everyday that God doesnt love me anymore because of what I do and that I’m going to hell…I know it sounds dumb this is a last resort for me to talk about whats going on no one seems to understand