I’ve been self injuring for more than a year and i know it has not been as long as some people but it has become an addiction. I was diagnosed with manic depression, severe anxiety and ADHD. The only way i could deal with it was to SI but at first i had it under control. Now, I do it too often and cant stop. I’m scared to tell my mom because the first time she found out i sat there and watched her cry. It was the most difficult thing i’ve ever had to do. I also do not want to feel like a terrible daughter anymore than i already do. I feel like so much effort went towards me getting better and i havent at all. Everyone only sees the front i put on and they think im getting better. Truth is, im not. I dont know what to do and i feel so alone.  Sometimes I hurt so much I don’t know what to do.  I just need help but dont know how to ask for it.