my dad killed himself when i was 13, leaving me, my mom, my older brother and my 6 month old baby brother. Now im 17 and i don’t know who i am at all. i guess you could say that i injure to forget.
to forget how my dad chose to leave me
to forget that i have spent most of my high school being a parent to my brother
to forget school and the stupid things that happen there
to forget the way people look at me and see nothing wrong when i really feel so much pain
i just dont know what to do with my life
all i want to do is forget and wake up and everything be okay
i hate hurting the people i love and no matter what i do i hurt them
I’m so, so, so, sorry about your dad. That must have been an incredible amount of grief. That’s one of the things that is keeping my from doing that to myself; knowing how much it would break the people who love me and who I love. I’m not an expert, but maybe instead of forgetting you could face the things that have hurt you. Sit down one day, or how ever many days you need, and face these things. I have trouble facing my emotions, and it just pulls you down. And think of the people you are hurting, it might help you to stop. I see from your screen name that you act? I love acting, too, as well as dancing, so maybe focus on that. Focusing on a passion is a beautiful thing, and if you still really need to forget, then forget through your acting. If you get where I’m coming from. Also, use the things that have hurt you as valuable life experience. You are probably wiser than most 17-year-olds, because of everything you’ve been through. You should be proud of yourself for being such a strong person to go through all this! 🙂
Stay strong! 😀