I’m writing because I’m tempted to self-harm. I made it through the month of October without falling back on old habits and I’m determined to finish it out (and then commit to November).
I’m trying to remind myself of all the reasons why I don’t want to do this: it doesn’t lead to good things, if I fight this urge than I am proving my faith in a God who doesn’t make junk (“Creation is good and that includes you, Laura”), I choose to honor the body God made for me, I want to swim tomorrow and I can’t if there are marks, whenever I get into the habit of self-harm I feel the presence of evil and I now choose to only invite in the light, at the moment I don’t have my usual tools because I threw them out and acquiring more would require that I go buy some and I don’t want to spend the money, etc, etc.
So I think I will go to bed now and hopefully the morning will be better.
Thank you for “listening” to me. I hope you sleep well and have a good day tomorrow 🙂