now i wish i hadn’t thrown my tools away.
I want to SI.
My friend Ben..Amanda ..just commited suicide yesterday. Her mom emailed me…and told me…
I love her.
I miss her.
And no one can tell me they understand. Not with my life..because no one has the exact information ..or knew her..
And i cried all night..got no sleep..and this morning..and still am crying..No one understands. No one.
How i need those tools a gain.
how it feels like im gone..and the world is crashing..when i thought it was finally turning out right..
-Ray is crying
i am sooooo sorry about your friend. i know saying that does not make any difference and i definetly dont know how you feel but what i can say is that i have an idea of what its like because i lost a friend last year too and i know how bad it sucks….its like you see them the day before and they’re all smiles and everything is great and the next day you go to school only to find out they’re gone…. at first it doesnt seem real and i cried for days and days and it hurt so bad. maybe its a good thing you threw your tools away so that you dont injure yourself. Its gonna be hard but its best if you talk about her and remember the good times you had with her…just remember that shes still watching you from heaven and that she wants you to go on with your life and have fun even though she wasn’t able to do that with hers……
once again i am sooooooo sorry
I am so sorry about your friend, and I will definitely keep you and their family in my prayers. Don’t feel bad about this, you couldn’t have stopped her, no matter what you tell yourself, and you have to remember that she is away from all her pain now and she loves you and just keep on fighting.
in my prayers <3rescue