now i wish i hadn’t thrown my tools away.
I want to SI.
My friend Ben..Amanda ..just commited suicide yesterday. Her mom emailed me…and told me…
I love her.
I miss her.
And no one can tell me they understand. Not with my life..because no one has the exact information ..or knew her..
And i cried all no sleep..and this morning..and still am crying..No one understands. No one.
How i need those tools a gain.  
how it feels like im gone..and the world is crashing..when i thought it was finally turning out right..
-Ray is crying