It feels normal. Does it feel normal for anyone else? I feel like everyone does it-so why should I stop? If that makes sense. And sometimes I’m really comfortable with that, but otherwise it scares me that I’ve found it a normal lifestyle to do this. I feel like I want to talk about it with the friends that I’ve told but then I remember how uncomfortable that would make them. I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be annoying because they have their own things to deal with and I wouldn’t be worth their time; nothing they say really…helps anyways. I dunno.