It feels normal. Does it feel normal for anyone else? I feel like everyone does it-so why should I stop? If that makes sense. And sometimes I’m really comfortable with that, but otherwise it scares me that I’ve found it a normal lifestyle to do this. I feel like I want to talk about it with the friends that I’ve told but then I remember how uncomfortable that would make them. I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be annoying because they have their own things to deal with and I wouldn’t be worth their time; nothing they say really…helps anyways. I dunno.
To me, I feel like I know it’s wrong, but I think people make way too big of a deal out of it, which scares me too. I am afraid that if I don’t stop then it could progress into something potentially life-threatening. I have only told four people. My boyfriend, his cousin who is also a very close friend, my cousin, and another close guy friend. None of my “girl friends” know because I am afraid of what they’d think and like your friends, mine have their own issues too and I don’t want to seem like I’m crying out for attention.