Hi, I’m kind of new to this whole thing (blogs and such). I have never been the best at explaining how I am feeling but I’m going to make an attempt here. I used to S.I , I have been ‘clean’ from S.I since March(2009). I had told my friends that I would stop and stop for good but lately, I have been wanting to S.I so badly. I just don’t know what to do. I know it isn’t too great to S.I but it seems like the only option for me. I need help. I have tried keeping myself busy and distracting myself with other things like cleaning and drawing and that but it doesn’t help at all. I have also been having thoughts about the my friends who have wantd me to stop. They supported me in the beginning but now that it has been a while they have seemed to forgotten about it. Those that are close to me, it feels like I am so disconnected from them. It feels like they don’t care, which makes me feel even worse. And every morning, when I wake up I just feel so disconnected from the world in general and I don’t feel like I am living, it feels as if I’m just empty, invisible…like I’m on the outside and looking in. I see all these people that I know and they are having fun and living life and then there is me, I feel so out of place and it makes me want to hurt myself because I’m not like them. I seriously don’t know what to do, I don’t want to S.I anymore but it seems like the only option…please help?