Last week I started SI again, for the first time in probably 2 or 3 years.  I’m so frustrated at work, I get so angry, this seems to be the only way to cope.  It was so hard to stop.  I don’t want it to get out of control again, like it was before.  I had to go through two partial-hospital programs and a heck of a lot of hard work to stop before.  The worst thing is, tonight I rationalized it to myself, saying “Well, it would be more harmful if I smoked or drank myself into a stupor, but I do not do those things.  What harm is it to anyone if I do this?”  (I know, obvious answer!)