I don’t know what to do anymore. I have been so stressed out lately. I made a promise to a friend and I broke it. I SI’ed again.  I am getting worse. The longer I try and stop the more I do it when I trigger. Wow. I didn’t think I would be up past 12 am writing this. I am worried that some people might figure out what I do to myself. This guy I am really close to, I tell everything to. But I haven’t told him about my SI’ing. Sometimes I wonder if he can help me. I’m scared to tell him though. But I don’t know why because he has been there for me whenever I needed him. I don’t know. I just know I am doing to lousy right now. I hate myself. I cry myself to sleep every night because I feel like I am horrible. I’m not exactly sure how to control myself anymore. I fall victim to SI’ing too easily now. I don’t know what to do anymore.